Moonlight sonata

Sylvie explained that her instruction had been to drop me off at the car hire office which seemed to be masquerading as an innocent petrol station. Had I missed that instruction? She needed to leave me to go to the rescue of some Japanese tourists whose minibus had overheated. I imagined them waiting very politely by the side of a road, bowing at any passing taxi.

So once again I found myself deposited by the side of the road, my chattels gathered around me as I laboriously made my way to greener, more fertile land. If this happened one more time then Bob Geldof was likely to turn up and hold a telethon for me. It was six o clock in the evening and the air smelt of summer in the city. I was less than 45 minutes north of Paris when I should have been in the Limousin sipping something alcoholic.

I wandered inside the petrol station,

“I am looking for a car hire office”

A gangly multi pierced shy lad behind the counter quietly finished serving someone their lottery ticket and coolly turned around a tent sign so that it now displayed Hertz. There was something vaguely secretive about it.

“Mr Crowfoot, I have been expecting you… your car is ready”

It was now a bit like a Bond film where the least likely, everyday person becomes mission critical as they double up as an overseas agent. I didn’t know whether to cry with joy or dive into the Haribo display which was tantalising me in the corner.

Once the lad had finished serving people he locked the shop and took me and my crates over to a very used looking Vauxhall Astra just beyond the tyre pressure machine.

“Emily has called, everything is taken care of. Just sign here and you can be on your way”

I’d never met Emily from the AA but she was my Moneypenny and Q rolled into one. After hours of desperation and feeling out of control I was now back in charge and on my way. Correze, I was coming. I plugged in Olivia and I headed towards Paris down the A1…

When you drive through Paris this way you literally pass under the runways of Charles de Gaulle,  airplanes sitting but feet above your head; then you enter onto a rollercoaster mish mash of roads which weave in and out of the concrete eastern suburbs until an hour later you find yourself in the rolling open fields of the countryside and it’s French Kansas again.

When you get on the A71 at Orleans you can point the car south and watch the landscape change as you go through the eastern edge of the Loire, through forest after forest until the Auvergne is upon you with its endlessly undulating fields interspersed with copses and cattle. The sun was more than setting as I turned right onto the A89 and into the volcanic scenery of the Correze, like a softer greener version of the Dolomites.

As I took the exit off the autoroute for our little piece of the vast Correze, a deer showed up in headlights at the far end of the beam. I slowed and drove towards it as it stared me out, turned and then coolly sauntered off. I took that as a good omen. Even the wildlife was expecting me. I passed through the main village, the market square lit by the moon and not a light burning anywhere. It was now just passed midnight. In four hours Madame Claudette the baker would be awake, firing up the ovens creating shelves of carbohydrate heavenliness.

I started on the twisty turny roads that take you up to Le Monteil but I wasn’t going all the way to the top of the plateau. Half way up my lights and weary eyes picked up a handwritten sign for the bed and breakfast. I drove down an avenue of trees, the type you only seem to get in France and I pulled through two huge wrought iron gates before driving into the lawned courtyard of what seemed to be a mini chateau, painted entirely in white so that it look ghostly in the moonlight. One solitary light burned brightly behind net curtains in a downstairs window. I peered in and saw a kindly looking man with grey hair reading by a wood fire in a wonderfully French kitchen. Pans hung from the ceiling and huge oak armoires lined the walls. I tapped on the window and he sprang to his feet almost propelling his book into the embers. A huge oak door opened to my right and the man thrust himself forward, hugging the life out of me. “You’ve made it! And safely!” I had met Jean. He now dragged me by the arm to the middle of the lawn,

“Have you ever seen a sky like this?”

Not the introduction I was expecting but I looked skyward and the answer was no I hadn’t. It was like a frozen firework display. No light pollution meant that you could see the silvery dustiness of the milkyway. The air smelled so pure and so thick you could almost bite it. A mountain range lay away from us, silhouetted by the moonlight. As exhausted as I was and as desperate for bed as I was, I couldn’t wait to wake up so I could be amongst all of this and see what the daylight would reveal.

Every cloud has a Sylvie lining

“We’ve got either a car or a hotel for you 60 km away in Creil – we’re just checking availability of both. We suggest you go there, we will update you on the way. We are sending a taxi for you”

I sat on the kerb outside the car rental office. Monsieur G was chain smoking and talking rapidly on the phone, he was trying to get me a car whichever way he could, but having no luck. At this point, 13 hours after getting out of bed it might have been sensible to give up on the trip. To admit defeat and go home or stay here in Beauvais just outside Paris until the Landy was fixed. I couldn’t though. I looked at my displaced strimmer, clothes and wellies all sitting next to me like horticultural refugees on the kerb. I really had this yearning to get to Le Monteil. I needed to be there and felt like I was being tested somehow; not in a religious sense but a philosophical sense. How strong was my mettle? How resourceful are you? This is nothing compared to trying to grow your own fuel.

As Le Monteil wasn’t/isn’t yet habitable, I was going to stay in the bed and breakfast three hamlets down the hill from the house and as the owners were going to be new neighbours and likely helpful people to know in the future I didn’t want to let them down. I looked into the car lot behind me. Just to make matters worse John Non Jovial was sunning himself on the bonnet of a red Citroen C3. Comb over was manically pacing up and down and muttering to himself. I think my American friends would say he was on the edge of going postal.

Monsieur G and I decided he could go and have the rest of his Saturday afternoon. I would be collected in a taxi and await my fate. Since quitting corporate world I had learned to embrace not being in charge and today was the exam after months of training. Monsieur G said he would call me during the week to update me on the Landy. He was such a lovely man, he had really wanted to show this visitor to his shores that his country would look after people like me. We embraced and he went off to see his family.

I looked at the map. Creil would take me to the east of Paris, I had planned my entire route along the west of Paris. Even if I got a car, I would now need to circumnavigate Paris and it was late afternoon and I had the equivalent of driving from Glasgow to London yet to do. Olivia would need three come back tours and be on the road until she was 90 to cover that.

I didn’t have time to consider the implications of this. A badly driven Renault saloon scraped along the kerb in front of me. Heavily tinted windows prevented me from seeing who was in it.. The driver’s door opened but whomever was driving was clearly so short I wouldn’t be able to see them until they rounded the back of the car and came into view…it seemed to take an eternity. And then she appeared. Sylvie. Half woman, half taxi driver and not someone you’d readily arm wrestle with. Mirrored aviator sunglasses, a fixed facial expression, shotputter stance which said “all that shit is going in my car? No problem. I can handle it. Let’s get your sorry ass wherever it needs to be” but with a French accent of course.

Fate had thrust me into the hands of strangers today all of whom I’d never expected to meet. I was just going to go with the flow of this one. Sylvie pushed her aviators higher up on her nose, thrust a powerful hand towards me, half shaking my hand half yanking me to my feet.

“Creil?”

Took me a while to understand what she was on about then it clicked,

“Yes please”

There was something decidedly secret service about Sylvie. I was starting to sense she could do martial arts to a fatal level; just from the way she swept my petrol strimmer into the boot of her car. I climbed in. The diesel must have been wearing off because I was starting to get a new smell, something vaguely familiar, reminded me of the roses at home but didn’t smell like roses, more like,

“Horse shit”

“Excuse me?!”

“Horse shit. My car is full of it. I have just been cleaning out my stables. Open your window otherwise you will be dead in three minutes”

Then beneath the aviators a broad smile erupted and she slapped my thigh, laughed and with a squeal of tires we were off.

Even if I’d found the energy, and suppressed my bubbling emotions to be able to talk, I wouldn’t have been able to get a word in,

“So do you speak Spanish?”

“No… “

“I do. I learned it on a two week trip to Columbia”

I knew I was going to regret the question but I just couldn’t help myself. After all Columbia wasn’t a typical holiday destination and the random nature of the conversation compelled me,

“Soooo….what were you doing there?”

There was a dramatic pause, the aviators were pushed further up on the nose,

“All I can say is it involved a man I met in Chile and related to the work I was doing at the time”

I wasn’t sure how to follow that, I was too tired to come up with something logical let alone intelligent,

“Was the weather good?”

How bloody British a question was that? It was all I could muster however. The answer just increased Sylvie’s mystique,

“Yeah not bad. Not bad actually. Of course we were fishing most of the time so it didn’t matter the weather was like”

This was all so random and surreal I felt really emotional. Besides, the unprecedented combination of diesel fumes and horse manure was making me feel sick.  I looked around for clues in the car to initiate a more sensible conversation. I spied a dog lead.

“Oh you have a dog!”

“Yes two. One is a Labrador” (now we’re cooking) “One is a German shepherd, I’ve trained her to kill on sight” (and it was all going so well)

Once again I geared myself up to ask a question I was worried I was going to regret hearing the answer to,

“Kill on sight?? Er that’s…er….(quick more Haribo)…unusual!”

“She’d never actually kill anyone she’d just hurt them badly. I live alone on a farm with my horses and my dogs. They’re my children. Someone once tried to break in and do harm to me and my animals. I cannot have that again”

Another random stranger thrown my way with whom I could instantly connect and feel a warmth for. The rest of the journey was full of chat about dogs, our mutual desire to have a small holding and be self sufficient whilst sharing an overall love for animals.

The conversation became so engrossing I hardly noticed that we’d arrived at our destination. So imagine my surprise when it turned out  to be a Shell petrol station in a concrete infested suburb of Creil……..

Citroen C3P.O.

Monsieur. G and I wandered into the dim Portakabin which was the National Car rental office at Beauvais airport. A spinny fan hummed overhead and I swear the room went black and white at this point. If I had been feeling less tired and more butch I could have been Lauren Bacall at this moment. All of a sudden from an open door a spanner was thrown, clattering onto the floor. A door in the back office was slammed and then two men came out shrieking in each others’ faces. One was really tall and thin with the worse blond highlights I’d seen on a man this side of 1986, the light bouncing off them more than it did the diamond in his ear. A queeny hissy fit worthy of back stage at a drag show was being launched at a short, rotund colleague with the most amazing comb over I had ever seen. The men were in each others faces, shouting, screaming, gesticulating all at once. The French was flying back and forth so fast I truly wish I was able to report what the cause of this disagreement was. I had no clue. I stood stock-still and stared wide eyed as the floor show continued. Monsieur G seemed to be nonchalantly picking car detritus from his finger nails with a matchstick he’d been chewing on. I felt the need to intervene partly out of civic duty but also because I really didn’t have time for this and I could hear the clock ticking. I should have been trying to remember the words to one of Olivia’s less successful albums of the late 1990s.

I don’t know where the words came from. They were a mix of things which had been buried in the back of my mind since 1986 mixed with words I’d learned especially for my trip in case I needed them. In passable French I shouted,

“Stop it! Stop it! I’ve been awake since 2.30 this morning, I smell of diesel, I have only eaten childrens sweets since Calais and I need to get me and my petrol strimmer to Correze before midnight, please can I have a very small Citroen” The End.

Even Monsieur G stood to attention at this point. The fighting instantly stopped. The French one half of Air Supply stormed out the room, the stricken comb over was re-applied,

“Monsieur, can I help you?”

“Yes I have broken down, my insurance will pay for a hire car. I believe you have one car left”

I handed him the papers from the AA. In theory the good old AA should be a passport to anything but sadly not here at the National Car rental office in Beauvais,

“Monsieur! Your insurance company do not have an agreement with us! We will not give you a car!”

At this point Monsieur G woke up, stood up, straightened is cap and said,

“Excuse me? You said on the phone you have a car? It’s the last one in Beauvais… look at this poor English man! We have to help him and his gardening equipment! It’s the French thing to do!!”

I was past caring about insurance at this point so to dissipate the rising tension, I coolly said,

“Please don’t worry, I am happy to pay for the car myself”

Comb over had had a bad day. He was indignant and unfortunately the Great British Institution which is the AA had offended his sensibilities. Or finished them off after John Non Jovial had trampled on them.

“I am sorry Monsieur! But! If my cars are not good enough for your insurance company then they are not good enough for you! You will not have the red Citroen C3 with air conditioning! NO! You will not!”

The Haribo effect had worn off a while ago because there was no come back to that. The gap however was filled with my oil covered Sir Galahad,

“How dare you speak to a visitor of our republic like that! You are an embarrassment to France! Look at this poor Englishman!” Was I really looking that pathetic??? I also thought my outfit had international tones to it “He is in need! And we should show him that France cares!”

This was now clearly becoming an issue of national pride for Monsieur G but comb over wasn’t feeling patriotic, in fact he was a pill shy of a breakdown of some sort and I was tipping him towards it with my need for a small French car. He rose up, chest plumped up, the second strand from the left getting dangerously close to sliding behind his glasses,

“I will not be insulted! My cars are as good as Hertz and Avis! He can tell his insurance company that as well!!!”

I don’t know why I didn’t see it coming. Haribo haze? Or maybe the intoxication due to diesel fumes? Or maybe sheer exhaustion. Monsieur G was not standing for this. The honour of France was at stake. As I stood there flummoxed he simply catapulted himself forward. Within seconds its was man on man chest stabbing with fingers, seconds after that faces were bearing down on faces and the only word I understood was an international one which cannot be repeated. But I wasn’t going to see either of them next Tuesday. I had to stop this here and now. Two firsts were achieved simultaneously. I’ve never had two men fight over me and I’ve never had to break up a fight let alone by stepping inbetween to scrapping Frenchmen. With a deft swing of the man bag I thrust myself between them, I had comb over by the tie and a more friendly but equally restraining hand on my mechanic hero,

“Please! I only want a hire car. I am not asking for much. I am so sorry my insurance company have insulted you. I will write to them. Please can I have the small red Citroen with air conditioning?”

Well, it was heartfelt but it didn’t work. After a pause, comb over looked at me and in a voice which was more akin to telling me he was leaving me and taking the Celine Dion CD’s with him simply and quietly said,

“I’m sorry”

With that he walked  out the back door, Monsieur G left by the front slamming it after him. I was left with the hum of the ceiling fan and an increasing sense of desperation. At that moment the phone rang.  It was Emily from the AA……

Defender of the Realm

When the alarm goes at 5.30 for work I feel I have leaden feet and clinical lethargy with a side diagnosis of dopey, grumpy and sneezy syndrome.  When it goes at 2.30am to jump into my Landrover and drive to France I feel like a spring chicken on speed. I’ve never listened to Radio 2 in the middle of the night and I think I was so disproportionately happy to be heading to Dover that it was probably disproportionately interesting.

The Landy on a motorway is neither quiet nor smooth but somehow it sings and gives you joy. What is nice is how other Landy drivers flash and wave. It feels like a brotherhood of automotive dropouts in a world of cruise controlled jelly moulds.

The cross channel ferry between Dover and Calais is now an additional mode of transport in my commuting repertoire. It’s grim. At any time of day there are bus loads of school children unloaded into the cafeterias and corridors swarming like out of control wildebeest. They are interspersed with endless pensioners ambling about looking for a Daily Mail and a cup of tea. When the two combine, it’s like a game of skittles at sea.

When you land in Calais, civilisation begins immediately, you are straight onto a smooth surfaced, traffic free autoroute pointing you south. I had taped to the dashboard a route mapped out in stages and times for me to tick off and then congratulate me. I had seen pilots do it electronically with way points. ie reach Amiens at 11.30, pass Paris at 12.30. All of these led to a drink and a nice dinner at the end of the day. Olivia Newton John and myself were dueting all the way down the A16 from Calais with Paris in sight. Ironically she and I were asking ourselves “Have you never been mellow?” when I saw the fuel gauge start to move to the left with more speed than it should. Actually it was sprinting for the left. I glanced in the rear view mirror and saw a cloud of smoke following me. God works in mysterious ways and right at that moment she provided an exit to a French motorway picnic area. As I pulled to a stop and descended from the Landy  I could see diesel flooding from the front of the car. At this point I was hit by diesel odour so strong that it still gives me a headache thinking about it.

As the Landy stood in a sea of its own diesel I could see that the car was covered in the filthy slimy, malodorous stuff. I had been spewing diesel over myself for quite a while. It probably explained the throbbing headache. Breaking down by the side of the motorway has always filled me with dread. Doing that in a foreign country has to be up there with being sick on a rollercoaster or hearing the words, “Ken Dodd will be doing your enema for you today”

The AA now have an overseas service which ultimately transfers you to a nice French lady after Vodafone have fleeced you in the process. Nice French lady tells you (in English) that due to the motorways being owned by the police (huh?!?!) the French AA are not allowed to come and rescue you.  The police have to organise your rescue. “Please phone 112 at your earliest convenience to speak to them sir”. Unfortunately 112 is actually the firemen you silly but nice AA lady and not the police but the firemen are massively helpful and put you through to a random policeman who gets out a road atlas from his desk, locates the scene of your trauma and gives you the phone number for the village policeman closest to you. Who actually turns out to be equally lovely and makes the necessary arrangements…”Rest assured! Help is on its way!” I didn’t have enough time to be cynical as within five minutes a rescue truck chugged into the car park. Monsieur G had landed. Probably the most instantly exuberant, jolly and smiley mechanic I’d ever met. And probably the biggest Landrover nut France has ever produced. “Day-phon-daaaaaaaaaar!” (Defender) he half shrieked, half gasped as he yanked my hand from the wrist and involved me in a moment of impromptu body popping by way of a greeting. “She’s a beauty isn’t she?!”

“Yes but she’s drowning in a sea of diesel and I need to be in the Correze by 6.30 this evening!”

I’ve never known anyone express “You’ve having a laugh aren’t you? But don’t worry we’ll sort it” without actually speaking, conveying it instead through a waggle of a cigarette, a smile, a pat on the shoulder and the turning round of a flat cap.

I love how we blame our ridiculous health and safety laws on being in the EU. The police appointed mechanic smoked throughout a major fuel leak and his recovery truck didn’t have any seatbelts. It felt bizarrely liberating and somehow comforting. I think by making ourselves so “safe” in the UK we inadvertently terrorise ourselves. Bouncing along in that tow truck was like running with scissors through a forest in a thunder storm.

The Landy was deposited in M. G’s yard. It sat upright and conspicuously green amongst a sea of miniscule and mangled Citroen going back to the era of Charles de Gaulle. It was now Saturday afternoon, on my route planner I should be having a wee stop somewhere near Orleans right now. Olivia would have made it into the 1980s and there was every chance we’d getting Physical on the A71 south.

Yes there were mechanics around but they weren’t going to be looking at this patient in great detail anytime soon. Many Gallic shrugs were emitted as they all looked under the bonnet. The fumes were too much for me to get close. My clothes stank enough of the stuff anyway….

M.G walked towards me and shook his head,

“The problem is easy to fix, but we need to remove bits to get to it… your garage in the UK forgot to tighten the connector between the fuel pipe and the engine” Basically my dear Landy had eviscerated itself on the motorway apparently due to the vibrations. Was my singing that bad? I don’t think Olivia Newton John vibrates much, certainly not as a lady of pensionable age. Thank god it wasn’t Bonnie Tyler otherwise I might be looking at a new big end.

I must have looked even more despondent than I was feeling as M. G decided on a course of action to cheer me up. Part one was a tour of several Landy’s he had in various states of undress. Bizarrely it felt reassuring.. I might not have a connection between fuel and engine but I did have more than a chassis with a protruding gear stick.

part two was to phone for a hire car... there was much exuberant dialogue going on down the phone, relating to the fact we seemed to be in the French  equivalent of rural Kansas on a weekend and options were slim to nil...Finally the Marlboro red nearly dropped out of M. G's mouth, he pounded the desk and excalimed, "I have found the last car in Beauvais! It's not very big but it will get you to the Correze!"

I loaded my gardening kit and expansive travelling wardrobe into M. G's car and we headed to the airport. I still smelled of diesel and was now quite weary having been sustained on Haribo and coffee which was causing a major dip of mood and strength.

The airport at Beauvais is so small a row of houses with neatly tended gardens and bright floral arrangements suddenly stops and becomes the car hire offices. And that's where the nightmare was just about to go nuclear.......

In Gordon we trust....

Now that we are homeowners (careful!) in France, the work lies stretched out before us with no end in sight. It will be like the Forth Road bridge, once we’ve actually built the bridge. 7 acres of untamed wilderness waiting to be honed into a paradise complete with zones (breakfast, morning coffee, lunch, post lunch nap, book reading, afternoon tea, gin o’clock, dinner, star gazing, growing stuff to eat) With that in mind David and I bimbled over to the garden tool shop in Northampton ready to fill the Landy with petrol powered garden busting paraphernalia. Strimming was high on the list and I stood in awe at the array of machines available for purchase . Why would you need to spend £1000+ on a strimmer? What would it do in addition that a model for £200 wouldn’t do? High powered flossing? Macrame? Dog grooming? Back, sack and crack? Apparently it was all in the attachment potential and options. It’s interesting how different brains look at things. Faced with a strimmer that could be converted via an attachment and some bizarre deployment of inerlocking tools into a 65bhp yard sweeper, David’s brain said “ooooooh spinny attachment thing, must have”, mine said “scary mechanical thing which will outwit me”

Gordon the Garden Tool salesman had us sussed. He stepped in where others would fear to tread. “Guys, I think that we should limit your options to the first three from the left”

What was it that our man bags and perplexed faces conveyed to him which instantly put 18 strimmer models out of our reach for perpetuity? Would we ever be able to graduate onto them?

We were deftly steered to a lovely red model. We both went “ah Honda”, must be good.

“Are you familiar with how to put on a harness boys?” inquired Gordon. Amazingly we took to it and before long we were dry strimming the carpet as if we were born to do it.

Having dealt with strimming, we then needed to move onto log and tree issues of which we have many. The chainsaw department beckoned. A wall of 50 different models stood before us. I heard the music to The Planets in my head as Gordon gestured with a sweep of the arm like one of the dolly birds on a 1980s game show revealing the Mini City E and matching fridge freezer from behind a tinselly curtain.

We stood in awe. We gaped and we contemplated. I think I heard David squeak. Then Gordon spoke,

“Well you’re only going to need to consider three of these machines lads”                

What?! Why? How did he know we didn’t own France’s only giant Sequoia forest? Huh? What if I wanted the one at the far right rather than the one at the far left? After all it was such a sleek looking one with rather a pretty shape to the engine cowling and I just loved the shade of orange….somewhere between a Jaffa Cake and Victoria Beckham.

I don’t know what Gordon the Garden Tool salesmen did as he ran us through different combinations of chainsaws but at the end we were terrified. He talked about chain tightness, chain slackness, chain sharpening, chain lubrication and at that we were in the middle of a chain reaction. We wandered over to the saw section and spent £12.99 on a bow saw. In any case, the pushing and pulling required had to be good for tricep development.

I felt a huge wave of impostor syndrome sweep over me as I loaded up the Landy with my new petrol driven weed basher and related paraphernalia. I also felt a great deal of excitement about being able to do something with my French home that would be meaningful. I’d done enough dreaming. The house had sat amidst a wilderness for almost 70years and it was time to liberate it and give it its rightful personality back.

The next step was to point the Landy towards Dover and crack on…..

Ho ho ho, Green Giant....

I had an automotive road to Damascus recently. Well actually the road to Correze. The problem with a Volvo which is very pretty (I know that’s an oxymoron) but prone to failures of trim is that you don’t really want to get it dirty. You certainly don’t want to throw pieces of agricultural machinery in the boot let alone a wet dog or two. There was only one conclusion. It had to go. No more shiny fake wood. No more air conditioned bum. No more turbo charged creamy leathered Parker Knoll for the motorways.  Something more serviceable and practical was needed. Something you could swill out and climb a mountain in. Something that said, “I’ve gone from dull executive type on a career path to an occasionally lost but more humble and happier I’m not sure exactly what yet”

I think that’s how I found myself in the Landrover dealership of a Saturday morning. “Would you like a frothy cappuccino from our Swedish cappuccino machine Suh?”… don’t mind if I do…. “What can we tempt Suh with this morning? Has he seen the award winning Evoque?” Even if I could afford it, something that was inspired by Victoria Beckham wasn’t likely to get me through the snow with a load of logs…

“I was wondering if you had any old Landrover Defenders?” I stopped short of saying “that no body wants and which need a good home because that’s about all I can afford”…  I think my face probably communicated it though.

I was discreetly moved to one side, a bit like Norman Wisdom turning up somewhere posh in one of his films. I was politely seated next to the accessories – cups, kagools and fleeces bearing the Landrover logo and business card holders and shiny pens bearing the Range Rover logo. After enough time for my dreadful frothy coffee to congeal and go cold a nice man came and introduced himself. John of Used Sales. It sounded momentarily like a title, such as Ann of Cleves, or Lawrence of Arabia  but hopefully with a slightly less dire outcome.

I explained what I was after and why I needed it. I probably looked almost convincing but not enough for John of Used Sales to say “have you ever been in one?” This was code for “are you mad? It’s way too butch for a prissy parking sensor heated seated electrically folding mirrored homolulu like yourself”

Fair question. I had actually but I could not remember what it was like. I seemed to remember stepping out of one as a child and plummeting for what seemed like an eternity.

Never the less John of Used Sales decided he might have just the thing for me…. Ushering me out the back door, he took me into a compound. Amidst a pile of broken cars and trade ins too common for the forecourt, stood a green beast. Dirty, shabby but standing tall and in full length van version. A 2003 Landrover Defender 110 Hardtop to give her her full title. She spoke to me. She said “take me to France and let’s run away together, let’s be born again together and live happily ever after”. I didn’t kick tyres, suede loafers would come off worse against these Michelin monsters.  I did know however that there and then a test drive beckoned.

Once I’d climbed inside (literally) I saw that the door handles were Morris Marina circa 1978, the switchgear Mini/Maxi circa 1970-80, I was in retro heaven and no-one was going to take me out of it. All I needed was a pair of Farah slacks and a Farrah flick and the picture was complete.

No buttons, not even a rev counter. No dials or digital displays, no automatic anything. I felt that this reflected the new me. Simple, stripped back and hopefully functional.

However this new form of driving would need a transition and you could take the boy out of the Volvo but not the Volvo out of the boy. “John, my window seems to be a tad foggy, is there a demisting button for it?” John of Used Sales coughed and spoke seamlessly, “Use ya sleeve mate”

As I bumbled and bounced along the road, re-acquainting myself with the concept of a clutch the, car made me smile. It made me realise that in the grand scheme of life an extra ten seconds to get to 60 mph meant you actually observed the scenery around you. The deal was done. John of Used Sales could take Marion of Milton Keynes for a curry that night.

When I got home and explained I’d sold the cow for a bag of beans, my only defence was “Well the Queen has one” to which David of Much Patience quietly replied “Yes dear but she also has 25 Rolls Royces”

There was nothing left to do but plan the big trip…. Take the big beast to France and put her to work on the things she was bought for. The house is now ours and the fun can begin…….

Greek tragedy might lead to a French revolution, it's all good in the end

It’s a momentous week for us. And it has nothing to do with Archie’s impending hair cut . We have in our hands THE contract. The one which will transfer ownership of Le Monteil to us.We’ve survived the eight week period where the neighbours could buy it. None of them have clubbed together and so we’re on our way with fabric swatches and machinery we won’t have a clue how to switch on let alone use.

Because signing the contract requires an attention span longer than is necessary for seeing the six o clock news through to the weather, David is in charge of overseeing that. He will sit me down with a pen and guide it across the paper. As is usual in such circumstances he will hold a piece of chocolate in his hand and like he does with Woody, reward me only when I have been a good boy. Anyone who thinks I am being “colourful” in my description of the situation obviously weren’t around when I needed to fill out my last tax return. 

I have the task of obsessively following the downfall of Greece and I don’t mean a re run of the fall of the Mycenaeans. This is so we can transfer THE money at an appropriate time. Don’t get me wrong I am not being mercenary but we are watching the euro like Simon Cowell watches the ratings for The Voice.

In the meantime the tortuous process to sell Greenwood House continues. I say tortuous  because it’s heart breaking. More for David than for me. He knows every rose by name and has watched everyone of them grow. The wisteria (or theMiddleton sisters plant as I call it – smells very fragrant but climbs like buggary) has grown from nothing to something so beautiful you can quite simply just sit and look at it. It’s where we brought Archie home when he fitted in the palm of my hand. First thing he did was puke on the carpet after his first ever car ride. I actually miss that Saab with its cute between the seats ignition and mini wiper blades on the headlights. What? Oh back on track…

The worst bit is welcoming people into your home with faux glee that you’d avoid ever inviting to a dinner party. “Does the price reflect the furniture?” or my favourite, “Have you ever thought about building a downstairs toilet?” No, because the one you’ve just used is plenty enough.

David and I have long discussions after we go to bed about what the UK bolthole should be. It’s like communism and fascism coming together, they espouse different ideologies but you know eventually they’ll meet round the back…..

Well Iron Girdle has a new buddy. Mr Hollande. Naturally we were following the election with close interest. The last famous Mr Holland we were remotely interested in was in a bar in Amsterdam and had the first name Gay.  But Iron Girdle what the hec  were you wearing at Camp David? It was a sort of lavender pant suit. Way too girly and woman at House of Fraser for the current state of the European Union. I think if we all have to put up with endless Robert Peston as a symbol of how dire things are, the chocolate pant suit shouldn’t be retired just yet….

Don't raise the roof.....it's a sore point

I took a break from writing whilst France was going too painfully slow. If felt wrong to write the equivalent of tumbleweed as nothing was really happening. The roof wasn't going on (in fact bits were falling off), the septic tank was still only real in our imaginations - even though I have no idea what one looks like, it's been a green equivalent of the Beatles Yellow Submarine in my mind for ever and Googling it would just spoil it. My energy came to a halt like a ten tonne truck doing an emergency stop to save a squirrel. Then I became all philosophical. There were other things in my life and maybe I'd let France become all too consuming. I parked France. On a shelf marked "A big fat lesson for Tom to learn some patience and breathe and look around him" Ironically in my bid to get some space in my head and life and to gear down I'd turned the vehicle for that into my new daily sprint. This time it took me 3 weeks to learn that and not 39 years. I walked dogs, read, nurtured my work network and spent time with people dear to me. I spent time with my mother during a difficult time in hospital for her. I also unexpectedly said goodbye to someone who'd been a dear part of my life since I was very small. Someone who'd been pivotal in introducing me to the value of the land and all that it yields for human kind. A farmer who'd planted an early subconscious seed of future French life in my 5 year old brain. Thank you David and rest in peace.

My David and I decided we needed to re acquaint ourselves with all things French, but particularly Le Monteil and our old roof with slates missing. We strapped on the loose bits of trim and Volvo'd ourselves to the Limousin for a weekend. Yes there was the inevitable cheese, wine and strong coffee and croissant for breakfast but more than that we went to the house. As we wound our way down the track, we saw spring desperately trying to make an appearance after the worst winter on record. We sat in front of our cattle stalls (or future en suite as we like to call them) and imagined how it was going to be when we finally took possession. Tables in the meadow full of food and laughter in the summer, hammocks in the trees, smoke from our wood burners in winter. We saw deer skittering away from us, bounding deep into the forests as we hiked the hills around the house. We saw views we'd not yet seen and stood in awe as fields, hills, forests stretched out in a 360 degree radius from us. Then we got pissed. Really pissed. Wake up in the night with your tongue stuck to the pillow and your pants round your ankles pissed. God French wine is good. We were restored... and that's how we skipped back to Britain and submitted our planning paperwork which should hopefully push the sale through.....

Of course as I write, elections are happening in France. But what about Mme. Mayor? Is she up for re-election? I've grown rather fond of her in absentia and have implicit faith in her as her pen hovers above our planning paperwork......please don't replace her. Future citizens #86 and #87 need her....

As for Iron Girdle, she seemingly is no longer news worthy. Or has abandoned her post.Surely not. As Greece metres out its emergency pocket money, emergency summits have become soooooo passee...I miss the chocolate brown trouser suit and helmet hair. They are always so reassuring as they bounce on the scene of the latest financial mishap. Although rumour has it she's plugging "Spain" into the sat nav of her 7 series as we speak......that should send the Euro towards a teak garden set and matching steamer chair........

We're not even going through the motions yet...

I think I might have had a bit of an episode this week. It wasn't a full on diva -esque Prince Philip rant but it nearly headed in that direction. So the roof HASN'T gone on because our new chum the mayor has decided that if we're going to move into the house it needs permission in our name and not of the people who are selling it. So we shot ourselves in the foot by going to see her and enthusing about our plans, bouncing into her office with ipads full of artists impressions of our barn. It's fine for a roof to go on for A.N. Other as part of the selling process but when it's specifically for people with names and faces, a chain saw on their ebay watch list and a copy of Grow Your Own by the side of their bed then it's not alright. No I don't get the logic either. But when I asked if she was likely to approve the new roof I was assured "of course, she wants you to move in so she can have your taxes", I suppose when most of your other citizens have a bell round their neck and answer to Daisy or the French equivalent we must be hot to trot, fiscally speaking.

If that wasnt bad enough the septic tank hasn't gone in either for the same reason. Catering for anonymous effluent is fine but as soon as you think you might know to whom the effluent belongs it needs more permits than a mini break in Tripoli.

And then there's the front door... we think it's not wide enough to take most furniture so we will need to widen one of the doors into the barn. I think we might just do that.......


We had a dress rehearsal for developing gites last weekend. Well low grade corporate espionage with buns for tea. We went and stayed and in a Landmark Trust house for the weekend. No we will never be able to compete with them on architecture and roccoco mouldings but I am hoping we can show them a thing or two about hospitality and making life simple for your guests; like providing matches to light the fire and Scrabble. The Landmark Trust take a somewhat puritanical view to modernity. There was no TV, no wi-fi and no radio. The only books they had were terribly learned on subjects i'd have needed to look up if there was Googling options. I was like a caged tiger 48 hours in and realised that in France I would have to acquiesce and invest in satellite televison. It might even be a good way to perfect my French unless France too has endless programmes about house buying and renovation... "Homes under the Red Tape"? or for the even more stressed "Sedation, sedation, sedation", more likely though "60 month makeover"

Where is Iron Girder? I've not seen her in public since that chap poured those beers down her neck. I've decided she's probably hiding as she now realises she's lent all her money to Greece who will still need lots more and that's before Spain and Portugal knock on her door before going to wonga.com

I'm feeling a bit karma

I've felt at a real crossroads this week. In an almost entirely good way. Having been frustrated at the pace of change, I decided that it wasn't worth ulcer-ising ones self over things that were almost impossible to influence any more than I currently am. I hate having my photo taken and it's never a good outcome but to mark this moment in history I got a friend to take some. I want to be able to look back at them and say "that was the moment aged 39.5 that you deliberately through everything that was beautifully fixed and working up into the air. You stretched your relationship and tested your resilience to new heights. Nutter"

I do feel caught in an emotional air lock if I am honest. Not quite finished old job, not quite started new life... contracts signed on French house, showing people around the UK house.

On the last point, David Mees has tried hard for 12 years to get me to pick up my undergarments instead of stepping out of them somewhere convenient. He's failed. Having strangers wandering around our home has done the trick...in fact dogs and David Mees are terrified of me when I get into "scented candle mode"...it's what happens when Christine calls to say "Good news! I have a viewing for you"... I charge around lighting the candles (Jungle Jasmine - sounds like a female porn star but never mind) and shoving things randomly under beds and into cupboards. So far this exercise has lost us a set of car keys, an ipod and a dog lead. All to be found when we move out but I am missing "30 disco classics for driving"

The French contract is on it's way to us, we then send them some money and wait 8 weeks then it's ours! I felt I needed to put some karma in the karma bank account for our good luck this week. An opportunity presented itself when rescuing an Alsation called Louie who'd escaped from his home. He was a failed police dog - he'd failed the biting test, fairly evident when he wanted to sit on my knee and love me as I tried to drive him home.

Friday night took us to a dinner party of 10... we met a fantastic guy, pushing 60 who ten years ago bought a house in France. We swapped notes on the experience especially dealing with the French legal system. He recounted taking Carrefour bags full of money to the notaire. I rather hope we can use electronic banking or certainly better bags. At the end he looked sadly at me and said "It was the most stupid thing I've ever done" - my heart sank into the profiteroles and I must have worn it on my sleeve. He smiled, leant over and touched my hand. "selling it again dear boy, selling it again. I should have kept it and moved there"

May the 4th be with us....

I'm starting to think I've started, or more likely become a member of a secret society rather like the Free Masons but more cheese and wine orientated. Before you think I've bought a new pinny, I'm at pains to point out that it's a club of people who've moved to France or who are contemplating it in secret. People keep coming up to me in places like the coffee queue at work and letting me know they're thinking about it, they've got French property websites squirreled away in their favourites. Other people stop me whilst out walking the dogs to tell me about their friends who've done it and who are enjoying it massively. I am collecting names, numbers and email addresses. There seems to be common themes to the gallic exodus. "They wanted a different pace of life", "they wanted to downsize and enjoy the countryside" - no one seems to be moving to large city France. No-one seems to be doing workwise what they did in the UK. The "truth" which is spoken through innuendo, metaphor and occasionally body language in the form of Les Dawson-esque expressive lip movements is that the escapees were seeking a more values based existence. They were seeking some kind of spiritual re-energising .One in which agriculture, eating a local harvest and being content with less material goods is the norm. It's a bit like going back to the 1950's without the ricketts, spam and smog.

Forget whether the destination for all of these people is France. What is it we're all running from and what are we all seeking that we're not getting where we are? Maybe we're the new hippies and France is the new commune. Ipad the new tambourine. Armagnac the new wacky backy.

My bit of the commune will still have a dishwasher. I asked my electrician this week whether we can take British appliances to France.. "just change the plug mate"..

Well thereby lies a problem. Plug fitting is my Star Wars. I've never done it. Never envisaged it either. I know Alec Guinness was in it but I cannot do it. And in the same vein I will have a house full of adaptors you buy at the airport... 23 at the latest count.... the Empire does strike back, three pins rule....

By the way we have an initial completion date of May the 4th....

For richer for poorer in tiredness and in the bargain aisle

David has sent the contract recorded delivery to France. Now we wait to hear if we've signed all the right bits. There is a fortune to be made in France from those little luminous stickies that lawyers in UK use to helpfully show you where to sign. Those apparently haven't made it across the channel. A bit like rabies but in reverse. I don't think it would be a fair trade either. We went a bit signature-tastic in the end with a spray and pray approach to signing just to be on the safe side.

I'm starting to get a bit money focused ie for the first time in a long time I am facing the prospect of no monthly cheque coming in and I am switching lights off and shopping for two for one offers as if they are going out of fashion. I've come to the conclusion that having a regular pay cheque actually makes you lazy. I can't honestly remember thinking so carefully about how I spend my money when it comes to simple things like groceries and every day items. That regular pay cheque also makes you complacent. I now look to see how much things cost and I value them more. I've been handing over money in a haze for years. When you give your credit card they always say "check the amount and enter your pin".. I never check the amount. Who does? I now know diesel on the motorway commands a significant premium, a trip to the cinema is actually about a quarter of what a single unemployed person has to live off a week. And thinking about the cost of the cinema meant I valued the experience more. I also had to think about whether i was going to the cinema or going to do something else like have a take away. I couldn't justify both. So being poor makes you richer because you don't live life in a hypnotic state and you stop to think about what you're doing and what you're getting out of things.

So... what cost wealth and what value being a bit poorer? I'm still sweating it though worrying whether we're going to sell the house and when. I'm thinking of getting Christine a sandwich board and a different patch to pound everyday.

If I'm honest we're a bit worn down at the moment as we deal with the mountain of tasks related to our new lives. So I'm feeling like we need a trip to France. It's been more than a month and as things get tough this end, we could probably do with an injection of standing at Le Monteil hearing nothing but wildlife and breathing the air, so rich and pure you can chew on it. Then popping down to the village for stewed coffee and cheese at the village cafe. Reminding ourselves why we're doing all of this

There's no joy to be had from the exchange rate. 1.19 and too many 0's. It slipped in positive response to Greece as it found itself being bailed out more times than a leaky pedalo at Southend. If I was a betting man though I would reckon there's a few undeclared invoices and pawn slips under the sofa cushions in Athens waiting to surface when we least expect it; that's unless Iron Girdle popped round for a robust rummage whilst they were all out of the country signing the loan agreement.... I hope she didn't damage it though because even DFS have limits about who they'll lend to....

Piddler on the roof

Sometime between lats and delts at the gym this morning I received a simple text to say that the new roof would be going on the house very shortly. I was so excited I was worried a little bit of pee might have escaped. This is such a distinct milestone in a world paved with seemingly endless milestones. It will hopefully be followed very shortly by milestone sceptic tank and milestone kitchen... seemingly unconnected but so very vital in terms of being able to live at Le Monteil comfortably so we can chunk through things like taming the 7 acres of wilderness which surround the house, tackling the barn which will be converted to double our living accommodation and then erecting a new wooden barn to house an array of wilderness taming kit....some of which I admit I am quite intimidated by. I will have no clue what I am doing with most of it and nervous I will convey this when I go to buy it. I am even thinking what outfit will reduce the chance of me looking like the potentially dangerous amateur I inevitably am. Wellingtons and overalls must surely do the trick. Anything with lambswool and matching corduroy will look like a weekender.....

I've been busy with the dying embers of my career this week, it doesn't officially finish until April. As David Mees has also been madly busy my animal husbandry has gone to pot. Tubby dog has developed an obsession for the chickens' food. He busily scoffs their corn and seeds as they squawk in vein protest. His little doggy brain doesn't equate his illicit snacking to what happens later. I've never been one for granola bars but never less so after seeing something similar being ejected with great determination and something of struggle from the rear end of a hairy French hunting dog. I will need to improve how we separate creatures from nature's all you can eat buffet when we're building compost heaps with free ranging wild boar and deer at our back door.

The endless and slow paperwork for Le Monteil has changed our overall thinking slightly. Not a complete deviation but certainly a commercial adjustment. The whole buying process will likely take 9 months (if we're lucky) that's before we've hoola hooped through the planning permission process for the building changes and then found someone to do the work. Building our gites empire may take a backseat for a while. It's too slow a burn to get them up and running for income and we cannot afford that. Our adjusted plan is to divide our time between a UK bolthole and France for a while, both fulfilling freelance projects. I'd always wanted to do some project work anyway to keep my hand in and keep my brain going. It felt like we'd softened but actually it might be good for our sanity and long term success. The posts have changed but the goals haven't. We're ploughing on... figuratively and literally.... well we will when the rotavator has been mastered

I'm a bit worried about Iron Girdle, she's not been seen for a while, she's not in the headlines. How does she motivate herself if she's not got a summit to see over? Did they not have one this week? They usually do. However the exchange rate is hovering at a steady and tiresome 1.2 and some change.... she must be exerting some influence....

The pen is hopefully mightier than a farmer

David and I have in our possession a contract! Le Monteil is about to exchange, well when we work out where to sign... the ipad has been the scene of swipy frenetic activity as he google translates a hefty document en francais... Of course after we've done that there is the quaint (irritating) French law that says all the local farmers have to be written to and given first refusal to buy the house at the same price...and they have 8 weeks in which to do it or forever hold their silence. Hopefully they're not averse to two homolulus from Britain moving in with fabric swatches and endless colour charts so they don't club together, sell one of their wives, a cow and the henhouse made out of a 2Cv in order to protect the neighbourhood. I am not going to worry. Just like I am fairly sanguine (notice the odd French word slipping in there) about whether our house sells, if I can learn to drive a tractor and if we ever get the planning permission we need. I have noticed that worries which originate from other people's actions and which spring up on you when you least expect it (mostly what happens in an office) eat away at you more than worries orginiating from your own deliberate actions. ie "I've taken on a crumbling French wreck with more personal implications than getting a visible tattoo whilst drunk" is quite alright versus "the board are going to give you six additional deadlines and halve the time in which you need to do them" Maybe it's about being more in charge of your own destiny? Living your life for your self? Living with your own actions...

Madam mayor still hasn't passed judgement on the roof renovations so they cannot go ahead. What is she doing? By her own admission she only has 85 constituents some of which must be livestock, if she wants constituents 86 and 87 she needs to do a man from Del Monte on our polite request.

I need to pay closer attention to the upcoming election in France. It has more implications to me now...Apparently Sarkozy is in trouble but Iron Girdle is going to pop over and campaign for him.. is she going to leaflet houses? How will she do it? Will she get a new chocolate brown suit for the occasion? I rather think she's too busy getting bank notes printed on Greece proof paper....

Exchange rate back over 1.2 thank you Greece but if it and Rangers go bust in the same week there will be some unhappy kebab shop owners in Glasgow and I don't want that on my conscience for the sake of a petrol strimmer

Get me to the Greek, I will do a bit of coaching

Following an altercation with yet another concrete post I dragged what remains of the battered Volvo up to Staffordshire this week. I spent a massively rewarding two hours with a dozen young people who in a non Daily Mail way are pillars of their community, having chosen to run their own community enriching projects. I'd been asked to give them a talk on how to communicate well, how to build their own personal brands and sell their projects to maximum effect. The true test of that talk will be in a few months when I have to sell myself and build my brand in order to gain a few days consulting every now and again to pay for agricultural items. If I get nervous about selling myself, my rotavtor-motivator is these young adults who are doing braver things than I. As I left that residential course, undoubtedly spewing bits of Volvo trim across the car park in the process, it dawned on my as to why I was on more of a high than I had been at work for ages. These guys gave instant feedback through their energy, their body language and frankly through direct feedback, in real time. At any given moment (and on Twitter afterwards) they were saying how they rated what I was doing.That feedback was my fuel to keep going and to keep improving at any given moment in those two hours. I think part of the reason I tired of corporate world was spending too long not knowing whether I was doing a great job, a sh1t job or even the job I was expected to do.... I suppose it could have been worse they could have resolved the issue with getting me a coach. Coaches in corporate world are senior exec status symbols... "Now dear, I've got a wheel embedded in a jahari window and a venn diagram for you to fill out... I want you to capture the timeline of your career and what you think your goals are for the next five years".... that would have been fun. Poor love might have retrained to be hairdresser with me sitting in front of her flipchart.... can you get a goat into a diagram???

Iron Girdle must be doing something behind the scenes during the current Greek tragedy apart from handing out the bourbons at half time during the talks. Greece is erupting like Victor
Meldrew on esctasy and the exchange rate has dipped! 1.19! Bye bye fluffy towels. I feel like I'm on the generation game and am watching all the good stuff go by on the conveyor belt....

The wheels on our bus keep falling off, falling off...

We had a dose of reality this week akin to a suppository shaped like a butter nut squash. French bureaucracy. On steroids.... work at Le Monteil ground to a standstill when our vendors realised our new chum Mme Mayor needs to approve even the most basic roof renovations and the siting of the septic tank.... we're still waiting to hear what the outcome is but it's pushed the completion date back to May..... Even the dogs looked a bit forlorn, probably because they may have to wait to give their new passports a whirl... "we had those rabies shots for what exactly?" yeah boys but you did get your nails done at the same time so it wasn't all bad was it?

everything else at the house, like converting the barn from a derelict nativity scene into a swish sitting room will require full planning permission. We managed to download the 15 page planning application form from the government website, realising that our French needs to dramatically improve in areas of vocabularly beyond "Marie Claude and Jean Francois" which is the Gallic Janet and John. More butter nut squash...

Christine the estate agent is waiting to put the house on the market until she's got the perfect exterior shot for the brochure. I have to say it summoned all my resolve when I saw the amazing interior shots her professional photographer had taken. I was so proud of our house and what we've achieved here at Greenwood, the people we've welcomed here and the fun we've had. God children coming here days after they were born., holding a riotous impromptu wake for our best friend. I also had a major pang of guilt, wondering if I am selfishly dragging David Mees to a land of forms and delays rather than croissant and large open spaces...he says not..

With his usual ability to cut through the doubt in a wise way he cleared it all like this "Tom, if the next twenty years are merely a repeat of what we're doing now, what's the point, what would life be for?"....

Well the Euro has rallied a bit against the pound today... The Iron Girdle must be exerting her influence over the endless Greek discussions.... she must have sent in some Lebkuchen at half time to keep them going...damn. It's cost me a set of pans

I have a new boss, he's called David

So when I'm no longer on an organisational chart, am not a name on a box, have no job title, am not running a team... who the hell am I? Stripped of rank and function, a diary of up 12 meetings a day and everything scheduled from the moment I get up to the moment I run out of steam about 12-14 hours later, how will I cope? (by the way was I the only one who'd occasionally put fake holiday days in the diary just to get some work done?)

Well the answer to all of that became abundantly clear this morning when discussing how we were going to heat the farmhouse in France. I naturally had romantic notions of wood burning stoves fueled by our home grown wood, smelling all lovely and enticing. That's probably as far as my thinking had progressed. Big picture, low on detail. David ipadding the current temperature there and discovering it makes snow clad Britain look tropical, pointed out all the inefficiencies of wood stoves as a sole heating source. Within ten minutes he'd discovered all sorts of French government grants and discounts for those who are building wood fuelled central heating systems (up to 40%) Wood incidentally is a really low carbon way to generate heat. He'd found a way to supplement my wood vision and turn it into something practical whilst I'd already "progressed" on to wondering how many goats we needed.

So it's official. I now work for him. I rather like the idea. It did make me realise that for too many years I have been coming up with big ideas that others have then had the difficult task of making work behind the scenes as I reach for the next Starbucks and mad idea. Can I apologise to wonderful people like Iain Lumsden, El Portis, Andrew Robins, Sunny Harrar and many others who've in effect been sorting out my "wood" issue in corporate world for years. Incidentally they've worked miracles....and I am massively grateful.

Euro is hovering at the 1.2 mark...not bad... Apparently though old Iron Girdle is off to China on a visit? Is that allowed? Can she leave the beleaguered continent just as Greece is about to get all it's credit cards chopped up? If it slips to 1.25 I can buy a rotavator... that will need lessons too as I doubt it comes with parking sensors and automatic gearbox. A cup holder would be nice though....

Angela and Nicolas Wallpapering services

OK failed miserably on Euro update yesterday, sorry.. it ended well folks. Down enough to get some bed linen too. Angela and Nicolas are papering over the canyon like cracks in the Euro crisis... "oh those naughty Greek people are having some lovely lovely chats it'll be fine..." meanwhile Portugal is teetering like great Uncle Will in the receiving line at a wedding having been on the sherry since breakfast. In my head I see poor Angela Merkel playing with one of those children's toys where you have a big rubber mallet and things pop up that you have to bat down as quickly as possible... they are popping up faster than the poor love can wield that yellow blue and red mallet and there's only so much action that particular 24 hour girdle can cope with even if it has been engineered specifically by BMW.

Pivotal day for Le Monteil renovations, will Mme Mayor let us repair the roof without three months of planning permission...amongs the new skills I am learning through our French voyage is patience. The liberation of knowing the world doesnt come to an end if something doesnt happen this moment, this instant and certainly not by lunchtime. The calm and serenity is amazing AND it lets you focus on other things rather than obsess on the thing you think has to be done Now. Here. Immediately. It also makes me less ranty....

Let them eat cake

I think I've attended and organised my last ever Top 50 event today... unless in future it's the Top 50 goats or suchlike... I had a moment where I thought "damn I'm going to miss this" and then a board director asked me to get them some cake... next person who asks me to get them some cake will be paying me for the privilege, in France, I will have baked it and it will feel fantastic...and I will be thrilled to get it for them.

The train into London takes 45 minutes each way, you dont get a seat and it costs £90 pounds to come in for the day. I should stop now or I will turn into my grandmother "where have the days gone where you could go to the flicks and have a fish supper and all for 3 and 6". In reality my grandmother never went to the cinema nor had a fish supper she just liked to use that as an everyman metaphor for the cost of gin and cleaning ladies.

David gets back from a client trip to Berlin tonight. I shall be thrilled to see him and my welcome home news will be I've been researching chainsaw classes online. We will have lots of wood afterall and a fire to fill. I'm not sure he will be that excited, my sell will be that responsible chainsaw ownership comes with a "dress up costume" ie chainmail everything.... trousers, gloves....

Our current pre France livestock extends to three ageing chickens and the dogs. Archie (fat dog) was extensively sick in the garden yesterday due to eating something putrid on his walk. All I will say is that the chickens thought it was an all you can eat buffet. I am wondering what earthy delights goats will bring....

A sign of the times

The for sale sign went up today... it kind of makes it official... D will be sad when he gets home from his trip. Although he will approve of the estate agents colour schemes I think... nothing garish and at odds with the spring blooms in the garden.

I'm a little in love with Christine the estate agent. She's a weird combo of 25% Kirstie Alsopp (less hippy more blond), 25% Joanna Lumley and quite a bit of Goldie Hawn. She has little touches of leopard print on things when you least expect it and touches your arm when you say something funny. If the house sells quickly I will miss her. She is also a little naughty. A gay man couldnt ask for a better estate agent. She even made me dust things for the photos. David hasnt got me to dust things in 12 years

I think in the same way Adrian Mole noted his willy measurements at the end of every journal entry I shall mention the euro exchange rate. Last week the poor trade conditions in UK cost us a wood burner, this week with Greece fannying around and not wanting to be an extention of Baden Wurtemburg we havent quite got it back but we could probably get some fluffy towels out of the shenanigans... 1.19566 to the pound

Out of the starting blocks, book the ferry

Before I go any further this is absolutely nothing to do with being 40. The teeth bleaching, personal training and ridiculous thoughts about tattoos, they're ALL to do with being (almost) 40; throwing in my very good job after 18 years of corporate world, selling a dream house and leaving more friends and family behind than I can bear to think of to live in a virtually inaccessible farmhouse in the middle of France is definitely not to do with being 40.

It's actually about being tired. It's about feeling that my life is unrelenting and not actually my own. How many of the things I do on a daily basis are things I've chosen to do and done because they make me feel good? Or even things I am proud of? When did I last go on holiday and not think about work to an excessive extent or spend most of the journey to a weekend away on a conference call, sitting in the car to finish it when I got there? Don't get me wrong 18 years of corporate life has given me perspectives and skills which are massively valuable as well as networks and contacts which I treasure and will take to France. But there is indeed a but, I am a typical middle class 70's kid of typical baby boomer parents who pushed me hard to get the good grades to get to a good university to get a good job to succeed in a world they frankly had no clue about. Their ideal was based on them working in a world where there was no email, no fax, no "I sent you that message 5 mins ago and you've not given me your thoughts yet", no mobile phone, no blackberry flashing its tantalising red light in the corner. If my father drove to a meeting and was interested to know if anyone had called in, he stopped by the side of the road and put coins in a phone to speak to someone paid to take messages. If he didnt, the world didnt come to an end. That was only 1984. The world changed overnight sometime in the 90s into a monster our parents couldnt have foreseen and the goal posts changed but they and the system kept unwittingly grooming us for it...I'm stepping off the treadmill... I am so lucky that I have the enthusiastic support of DM and spending real time together will be part of the treat.

And I am still going to work, trust me I will need to BUT it will be to do things I am proud of and passionate about but actually supported by things I learned in corporate world and dare I say it have come to value. I am just shifting the context a bit...

And once you strip out all the material things that spend all of this time working hard for but dont actually enjoy, your cost base goes down significantly and

I have also become a lazy consumer. I don't need to eat overpriced asparagus out of season that's been flown around the world in plastic because I feel like blowing £5 on it... I wont need to compete in the daily fashion contest which is a "dress down culture", I wont need an expensive car to drive 35000 miles a year...

And just at the point where you think I've turned into a pious hemp knicker wearing do gooder that'll last 6months let me reassure you I am sh1tting myself that the nearest Starbucks is a 3 hour drive away and am scared that there is a Spa but it has an R on the end.....

Please visit me and bring marmalade.....